disappointment.....

I am so disappointed in myself. i just devoured ice cream. ugh. what is wrong with me? i just drank froday now i ate ice cream. i weigh 127 pounds. i was 115 a few weeks ago. all this stress. i need to hire mike davies asap. i guess i just cant do it on my own. i wanna say i can. i really want too!!!! i guess if i dont check into someone i just cant do it. i feel like such a looser right now. however on a good note, i found a club to work at and i think i can do pretty good there and maybe get caught up!! i am over missing jon and dont wanna work things out with him at all!! im over it. im over our marriage and i just wanna move on!! i love my babys and i love living a fit lifestyle!! i am so thankful that i have health and the love of my children. thankfull that i have the will to survivie and be healthy and happy. i dont need anyone but myself!! ive gotta get back on track health wise.