on a mission>>>>

i went to the jr npc championships this past sat in charleston. the trip wasa nightmare and the people i went with were completley annoying but the show was inspiring! I did overindulge on almonds today but im def on a mission jen hendershott oct 21,2011 20 weeks out here i come:) woo-hoo!!!

epic failure

for some reason unbeknown to me i can not control myself against sugar. i just got into an arguement with jonand turned to skipping the gym due to time restraints that would not have made that big of a deal. Instead i turned to a kind size snickers bar pepperidge farm and kashi cookies and a crossant. I did however not eat anything of ANY nutritional value. i feel like im gonna throw up. I now am freaking out because i dunno what im gonna do. I am thinking im gonna dble up on cardio the rest of the week and cut out my carbs except with meal #3. I feel like a failure. i skipped gym and ate bad. it would have been better to just have a shake and nw im way off track. I feel like a failure and feel like mike is gonna not wanna work with me anymore because im not dedicated. my plan for thurs fri and sat is: am cardio.....lnch cardio on thur and fri andevening cardio on all three days plus a workout on sat evening. sunday morning I will also need to do morning cardio while kids are asleep. should I even do this show? I can even stick to my diet. this is fucking redicilous:(

diet sabbotage. day #2

at least my binges are not as bad as they were. the bagels and cream cheese are getting thrown away because all of that stuff is too much temptation. I have gotta work harder at my diet. its simply mind over matter...no shit. I am STILL out of protein and still out of ziplocs...ugh sux ass:( maybe i can talk jon into getting some tonight or something~ i sure hope so I have gotta focus on getting. I wanna be the fittest at my gym. the fittest at the show and not just the leanest but the best package!! no more fuck ups starts monday which is tomorrow and i am doing extra cardio to make up for all the crap i have done over the past week. its me vs me and i am gonna WIN this battle against myself. I am destroying myself:( ughhhhhhhh

diet sabbotage.

having kids in the house is diet sabotage. I just"cheated and gorged. ugh. what is wrong with me? I must not want it bad enough...i just pigged out. I have a serious problem...that is gonna be my final cheat meal. ive gotta get these snack food outta the house...I just drowned 1/2 pint of ice cream and threw the rest out the door. this house has gotta have clean only food in order for me to be able to stick to my diet plan. I need this to be my safe haven from junk>>>i think i need to do some cardio now but the thing is that junk makes me sooo sleepy and not wanna do anything because i feel yuck and have no energy!! i would not mind forcing myself to do cardio if i had a treadmill but it sux having to load up kids to go workout and today i have an extra one and that makes 4!!!! thats too many to be loading up to do cardio. I am gonna be getting up early in the morning to go workout while everyone else is in the bed... that is a must! Ive gotta get my body on track. period.

post binge sickness...

last night i binged today i feel like ablsolute crap because of it. I have been going #2 all morning. i feel naucious:( ugh. my body hates me and the worst part is that im skipping cardio due to my house being a wreck and fabs coming over and the time i was gonna meet tara was impossible to go to gym and just hang and get maddux so i will be getting up supa early while the boys are sleeping and babys hopefully and going for a run outside...gabe is screaming and being a winey and he is getting on my nerves something serious. next week im gonna step it up a notch due to this week and 2 days im gonna do cardio for an hour. I have gotta be pn point on my diet and stop fucking around. I also need to invest in a treadmill asap to help with cardio so when kiddos are acting ba or i wake up late i can still get in some empty stomach cardio. I guess i'll have to save up around 100$ or more. I have gotta get my ass on the ball. my show is 24 weeks away ive got sooo much to do aside from even getting lean...so here is my list: 1.purchase npc card'-100.00 2.register for hendershott show-75.00 3.order suit-400.00 4. posing classes-50.00 5.boot camp 6.get big and get lean 7.net work with other competitors Its time. I'm getting super nervous and excited at the same time:) yay. this is my dream and it's worth the fear... 2.

what the hell....

why is this diet so tough for me?? so i just binged again...i had 2 tbsp nat pb and 2 scoops of ldp...but did i stop there? no 20 mins later i had at least 20 mini reeses cups and then a pkg o f ritz cheese crackers and a everything bagle with full fat cream cheese and a mocha coffee:( I have got to get my a different way to deal with stress besides food...ugh...I wanna make myself throw up:( i guess tomorrow my meal plan will change some: now i only get carbs on meals 1 <3 and 6 so tomorrow is gonna be no carbs no fats...1 hour of cardio tomorrow on empty stomach and i will prob take a run early in the morning on sunday. I have gottas get on track wioth my diet plan....ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 what the hell??

ONE TIRED BITCH>>>>

I am gonna be pretty exhausted for the next few days:( i screwed up and overslept this morning missing my mornin cardio meaning i now have 2 sessions to make up...boooo. so this means i will be doing a double session in the morning....and a double workout tonight! that way sat will just be cardio and home! this really sux but its my fault...i did it to myself by sleeping over and i have to make it up...the fat woon't come off on its own and the body won't toneon its own....I have a compete goal set that i must must must reach so i gotta do it...so todays workout consist of....back bi and tri and its a hardcore work out...along with stepmill after then tomorrow's mornig workout will be running and a extra cardio im looking at about an hour b/c ill prob split them up and do 2 long sessions fri and sat for am cardio:) tonights workout is gonna be super tough as well but im gonna take some preworkout supplement...oct 1st is getting closer...im getting more nervous and more determined to succeed and get to my goal...i dont care if i place i just wanna be my best me possible and continueing improving....let's go....

fail to plan plan to fail...i

It's the age old statement that holds so true. I did not have time to prep all of my food and did not have all the supplys/ingredients needed and i screwed up my diet day 2:( I did not have protein powder or ziploc baggies and did not have my food prepped so i did not eat well tomrorrow im on a misiion and starting off with the right....

marriage...

I am soo over being married. I am only still with him for my children. all he does is drink all the fucking time. he stays up all night. he treats me like a child...he makes me sick... I have to ask him for $ and then give an explanation AS to why i need it...then i get a lecture on to why its not importent and to why im so "selfish". in the mantime i have to make my scedule around his and go by his rules. I never get the things done i need and my work is not importent. he bitches cos im not making any $ @ my job but the reason im not is because im catering to his sceduler and his needs...ugh...who is the selfish one please tell me. we dont spend time together, kiss, have sex, do nice things for each other nor do i want to,,, this marriage is a nightmare. he accuses me of cheating because i go to the gym @ 5 am. are you freakin serious?????? i mean i have my diet and cardio plan PLAINLY POSTED on the fridge first of all, and second who in the hell would get up no shower no brushing of teeth no food and go have sex with someone????????????????????????????????/ what the fuck?? i also have to take him to belmede at least 1x a week for purchasing of loratabs so he can rip his brother off and overcharge him. i think the fact that he does not do favors is redicilous. he always expects someone to do for him though as a matter of fact he acts like evryone owes him something but he charges his mom to cuther grass...wtf???? are you serious??? if i could describe my husband in one word: asshole and thats NO JOKE!!1

the countdown begins....

the countdown begins....6 months from today is my show i am becoming terrified but it is time to let go of all my hang-ups and half assed shit and get on the ball buckle down and tighten up....I am competing against some friends but most of all against myself... I just had my lasy hurrah with sugar and junk brcause as of today THERE WILL NOT BE ANY SLIP-UPS. the gym and trainning will become before everything else. I am super excited. sooo much to do...npc card, suit shoes, posing practice, diet training, register, attend some shows and get in "figure mode" here i come folks...watch out because i am dedicated ad on a mission:) watch me now....

failure

I have ROYALLY screwed up the last two days. I have drowned myself is sugar and food. I feel like a complete failure ands i have eaten:pastta, pizza, a whole pkg of brownies, a whole pkg of dbl stuffed oreos, aa pint of ben and jerrys ice cream...ugh i sound like a fat girl...i am breaking up with dessert and i will not have it anymore unless its a birthday party or something. I need to get myself into order here and straighten up....i have been letting all of my stress and problems get to me and bury it with food...it makes me sick. what kind of example am i setting for my children?not a very good one thats for sure. i am gonna say that pint of ice cream was my cheat meal for the month and yesterday was a mistake. form here on out clean clean clean. NO cheats....jamie eason dont cheat, monica brant dont cheat i need to have the same will power if i wanna get to my goals and dreams. I am my own worst enemy, i feel like a complete failure. larissa reis does not cheat so now ive gotta get backon track here. no sweets in house dont go to store or go in sweet scetion at all untill i get a grip on chocoate and sugar cravings and all next week ive gotta do extra cardio ~im gonna add an extra 10 mins on every single am cardio session next week...and depending on what my progran is gonna be i may even add an extra day of cardio in the am, mon-fri i must do am cardio. i must get up no exceptions....ugh what an utter disappointment i am. eating bad food not only makes me feel guilty but it makes my vody feel terrible so why do i do it????? i dont get it. the thing is that i do it to myself i am truely my own worst enemy....

dedication....

I have had a migraine for 2 daY i am having a terrible day and the ONLY thing i wanna do is drown myself in oreos milk and brownies:-(. I seriously dont feel like working out thats for sure. I am trying to tell myself that the sugar will only make me feel worse NOT better and that a workout will make me feel better afterwards but the "pep talk" is NOT HELPING today. today is chest, legs and abs too sooo a supa hardcore workout....that i do not feel like doing....decisions. I mean im not really in contest prep yet...so a cheat meal would NOT kill me. This fight i'm having with myself is terrible but i think im gonna listen to my body have a cheat meal and take the day off and go back on sunday...its junk day for me and back on plan after....

my nightmare

I had the worst day!! Jon is a dick. he is an alcolholic ans started a fight> he told me i neglected my children. he told me i put myself first and that i let them starve all the time.he also said i abuse them. i love my kids and live my life for them. In turn i can home and fell down the spiral and binged like no tomorrow..2 LARGE bowls apple jacks whole milk lots of ritz crackers and cheese and walnuts....spun out of control... i feel awful now:( I am skipping MOST OF MY CARBS TOMORROW and friday sat and sun will be doing cardio to make up for it....looks like ill be skipping some carbs for the rest of week too. I am not only disappointed i ate bad but upset I let him get to me...ugh....imma just leave his ass!!!

killed it...:P

I just went to the gym for my sat chest and ab workout and killed it!! I am gonna be super sore tomorrow:) it was a good workout and i am super tired now and awaiting on my thermo to kick my ass into gear! I enjoyed the sat workout and its gonna be a regular in my sced now:) i wont be doing friday afternoon workouts anymore b/c I have meeting at my job on fridays at 330 and unless i wanna workout there>>>ill have to skip em. my workout was as follows:
superset:6 sets of: chest press-6 reps 2@30lb and 4 sets@50lbs superset with db flys @10lb db @15 reps, cable crossovers @ 15lb per side @10 reps for 4 sets, 1 arm chest press 20 lb- 6 reps superset with 15 pushups 4 sets of this superset, pullovers 2 sets@ 10 reps @25 lbs and 1 set@15 reps @ 20lbs, abs stability ball crunch 3 sets of 50,leg raise 2 @50, flutterkicks 1@ 25 and stepmill intervels @ lev 9-11 bw and fwd dif foot options:) see killed it. already sore! big chest:) nice abs im stoked and working out that hard makes me feel good and noone can take that away:) love it!! gonna be a good day! xoxo

ugh cheated AGAIN

I FEEL LIKE A huge fat ass. i just ate reg pb and protein powder instead of what i was suppose to...ugh...dissappointed in myself. I have to do a makeup workout tomorrow for today b/c of a meeting in the gym i work at. I do chest and legs and abs as well as cardio and b/c of how i ate i will be doing cardio on sunday too...:-( i threw out the pb i gotta order somemore appetite chews and get back on plan here. i gotta train a fitness competitor and im not eating on my plan...so next week im gonna have to do cardio in am on m-fri...yes 5 days...and at night4 days and plus my sat chest. workout....I've gotta remember FOOD IS FUEL NOT PLEASURE.....

motivated...100%

things are going great. I'm back on track with diet! 1 day 100%. I did my intense cardio this morning on a empty stomach and have had my breakfast. I have made the children whole wheat pancakes and turkey bacon(as well as the hubby) and the kids have eaten. I have a conference this morning im hoping i c an do on phone. I also have to go to the food stamps office and mail in medicaid office and then i have a meeting at work and i have to research training stratigies for a fitness competitor im about to be training. things are going well and falling right into place. I am happy with where my life is headed and my body is responding well to the diet mike has me on. im gonna KEEP at it HARD and NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP....

not feeling it...

I am so not feeling it today...i really was exhausted this morning during my cardio session and my energy has been super low all day:-( I really wanna eat a bad meal, some dessert and let my body rest for the day. I am worn.... but im not going down like that:) i am gonna eat and FORCE myself to the gym and FORCE myself through my workout/cardio and come home and feed kiddos:) im really gonna have to FORCE myself though cos i am exhausted....i really want some peanut butter and snacks ....boooo so i ate 3 pkgs of crackers-pb and i had 1 serving teddy grahamns and went to gym and worked out...lol. I ate my post workout meal and am now craving some oreos like something serious....eek. this is redicilous maybe today i should lay off and allow myself some bad foods. fuck it. im not perfect nor am in contest prep...yet as i was eating hersheys kisses and such my son looks at me and says is it cheat day today?? GUILTY i feel like a failure:( I am so ashamed and feel like a complete douchebag:( ok so that my innocent son saying that to me stopped me in my tracks. i need to set a good example of deication and never never never giving up. so i fucked up. owell. its over i cant fix it but i can move fowrd and learn from it. I am over the eating crap for a while and back on the plan. immediate as soon as i go out i must have gum. thats what has been saving me:) also i am not gettin my reward now. i screwed up....it starts again tomorrow im gonna have my full fat pb/protein mixyure and junk and then back on plan guess this was cheat day afterall...

hopeful-

well its wendsday march 23 2011. I ate a little too much protein last night and went off the diet plan but today is a new day and im on point. cardio done @530am on empty stomach 2 meals down 1 lipo 6 black and nutrtion and go yin in mny system:) I now am drinking coffee about to get some school work done. I am not sure about the future of my marriage but i did accept a sales position @ a christain gym in powdersville> they are suppose to be giving me in house certification and then i get to start training. I am eager to get my ace certification and find a good place to train that i can actually make money at that is not religious but you cant strt out at the top so ill start here and move up to a better place:-) I have got to get my certification and do my best. i will so i have to get off the computer drink my coffee and attempt my school work:)....till then

period.

so im on my period and it makes me crave choclote. i am not allowed and sugar or protein powder in my diet but i had some any way...ugh. my last meal was suppose to be 6 egg whites but knowing i was gonna be up a bit i had 1. 1.4 scoop vanilla myofusion with 2 tbsp cocoa powder:) yummo. I really want some candy but ya know i gotta stick to the diet better. i hate im not getting cheat meals anymore it makes it super hard!! I will still be eating again more than likely so ill prob still get in my next meal. so I screwed up(although not too badly) tomorrow is a new day and i will start fresh. tomorrow is a big day for me anyways:) I have a job interview as a trainer at this new gym and i think imma get it! I'm confident and nevous @ the same time:) I gotta lot to do....xo,

still going strong:)

well today i s march 20,2011 and i am still going stong on my diet and feel super acomplished. I do have to say that not getting to eat good tasty food and wayching everyone else get to is rough, esp since i make all the goodies for my kids. I find comfort in feeding them things i can have lol. as a matter of fact, I am making them cinnimon rolls as we speak:) they sure smell good and i would love to have the whole pkg!! I have goals and the instant pleasure and happiness is not worth the guilt. I have to keep telling myself that! I am really missing the almond butter i gotta say:( that was my little comfort food at the end of the night when my craving are the worst!! I got a email, i gotta call and scedule a interview for this gym as a personal trainer. I need to do that in just a little bit. I am hoping that i get it. so my training is off today and its suppose to be relaxation day but im baby sitting my brothers 8 month old!! 3 babys i will have! eek. but its only for a few hours so i guess ill survive....i hope we will see so here is to me sticking to my diet! I am rewarding myself by getting myself some mac makeup! next week will be new shirts from jennyh.com. they are cute. one says food is fuel not pleasure( i think i need this one the most) and the 2ed one days keep the food clean and the workouts dirty..love it!! this is my motivation to keep pushing through my workouts. love it. are you who you wanna be?....own it...

food troubles

I am exhausted and cranky, It has been a rough day for me and I am having some serious peanut butter and brownie cravings. I have done great on my diet i have had an extra meal of 1 1/4 scoop of myofusion pre bed which is allowed( im gonna dble check that with mike tom via email). my workouts have been amazing and I have done everything asked for the most part. Today was chest and leg shaping and cardio. tomorrow morning is my make-up cardio and abs and i am toast for now:( I have a busy day tomorrow and I wanna do something fun for the kiddos:) ive gotta get my nail fixed and jonny boy has to get a haircut, plus house is mess, bills to be paid...ect:

killer cravings!! 3/16/11

this was suppose to be my fitness journal but has actually turned out to be my "food craving" journal. well folks im at it again and having one of those moments! Its 30 minutes untill my next meal and 1 hour from my next workout and def def have some major major JUNK cravings and feel like im gonna break:-(. how do people do this? what do they do to get over their cravings> this is making me crazy! i am at the point now that i just wanna take a 24 hour break, 24 hour break from both my diet as well as workkouts, im hungry, exhausted and sore. its so hard having kids in the house and having junk here. im not buying anymore. im gonna have to take time to make them healthy snacks such as sweet potatoe chips and healthy oatmeal cookies. I am having major peanut butter cravings or any junk right about now! I actually bought some pb&j crackers and want like 5 pkgs right now. ugh and the worst part is....im outta gum:( gum is usally what saves me but since i dont have any it is NOT working:( this diet thing is tough and i am woundering if i can do the compete thing. this takes a lot of disapline and that is one of the reasons i wanna do it, to prove to myself. i can do this. i can beat my cravings. i am stronger than this. period. i got this. i will not give in until my trainer/nutritionist says i may, which wont be anytime soon!! ive got 10 mor lbs of fat to loose first:( untill next time

never known hunger...

ok so next time im eating "normal"(if ever again) i will never say im hungry ever again for i have never known hunger until now. being a healthy trim muscular female is hhard hard work. you bust your ass you starve yourself, you eat the same foods day in and day out over and over again and it gets old. I would do anything for a poptart right now or a sandwich

well today is march 12 2011. I have done my 4th cardio this beautiful sat on a empty stomach:) my program for this week was followed 100% ans i feel a huge sense of acomplishment:) I am soo gonna start a reward program for my acomplishments:) i need to get my nails fixed today since one of them broke off on my thumb and the rest of them need filling...o woo is me. I am thinking of getting a new job because im sick of being broke and we could use the extra$. thie hardest part for me is gonna be working it around my training scedule and maddux school as well as doc appointments and such. my fitness stuff gets pretty pricey:) here is an example: supplements:monthly:energy 2 boxes @ 45.00 each,nutrition 2 bottles @ 25.00 each, go yin 31.95, appetite chews 25.00, lipo 6 black-50.00, gym membership 30.00, extras 60.00 month( a reward for following my plan i allow myself)-keeps me motivated:), nutrition plan_30.00, workouts 100.00- this is for one month it adds up to almost 500.00 amonth not including food...wo is me so therefore to keep up at this rate i need a job:) and the search is on....

moving along...

well i started my new diet monday and its going great, im feeling great and all my workouts have gotten done on time as of this week. I am starting to see some definate muscle definition! I really like working with mike and hope i can afford to continue working with him. its only 130.00 per month for diet and workouts but the puregenesis products are pricey but if i absolutley have to, i guess ill have to let those go but i hope i dont have to because i think those products have a lot to do with the reason i have been feeling so good and its awesome to get off of all the creatine/bcaa and excess supplements i was taking that are hard on my body and stomach. so i guess im rally gonna do this compete thing and im excited and nervous. I am not expecting too much out of my first show but to enjoy and experience the journey. my marriage is falling apart and we have grown apart. we say very ugly stuff to one another and it breaks my heart:( I dont know what to do i cant stand him one minute and the next i love him. i hate that we never spend time together. i hate that he drinks all the time. i hate that he is so unhealthy and eats crap and wants to feed my kids crap. i hate that he is unsupportive in my fitness lifestyle and does not understand why i wanna put myself through this. I wissh things were different but if he does not change or we cant find a happy medium then we are gonna have to go our seperate ways.

mental strength

menatal strength has really been on my mind lately!! being healthy is hard but getting ready for shows with kids, a husband with no dl, trying to get my pt certification and everything else is sooo freking hard. sometime i wounder if i should just quit but quitting in not in my vocabulary~ never never never give up is my motto and philosophy. its easy to let those little voices that are inside your head tell you what to do....its raining and you gotta take the kids to the sitters just to go to the gym?? give me a break. that is my situaiton right now not to mention that i cant stand training chest although i looove the way a stron chest looks on men and females so im gonna suck it up and go i know i will feel so much better when i do right? its just the kiddos thing thta such a hassle ugh pack em up foor diapers wipes cups get em ready meet baby sitter ect ect ect and its waaay outta the way of gym and then go back n get em....ugh o well fit body fot mind ....lets do this:)

arnold day

I am newely motivated since watching the arnold finals. I am ready to move foward with my fitness endeavors and compete. this scares the fuck outta me and part of me wants to back thefuck out. this however,makes the other part of me want it more. funny how the mind works. looking at this photo makes me see what i need to work on the most is delts and legs which happens to be the 2 most importent parts of figure as well:) i ordered my new cardio and workout plan and nutrition write up from mike today and will be recieving it on sunday. i look foward to it and am anxious to continue to make improvements to my body and keep getting better and better. I will continue to blog on my progress as well as post new progress pics 1x a month...and the

beat moves on...looking at these photos grosses me out. the backs of my legs look awful. i see cellulite and fat. i really dislike my legs, bum and stomache. ok, no cheats follow diet workout hard....let's do this:)

period craving...eek

so i started my period today:( i am seriously craving sweets...ahhhh this sux sux sux!! i know i am dieting and i cant cheat even tho i am not "in contest prep" i kinda am and i also know that if i start i wont stop....ill devour everything sweet in the house! i want poptarts and crackers and cookies lol...this is super duper hard for me not to eat everything in my sight. i can feel full and i want comfort. i wounder how competitors do this all the time? i prob just need to keep myself busy so i dont loose it. its insaine to me how much food can control a person! my next meal is not for 30 mins and i feel so frekin hungry but this is NOTHING compared to how i will feel the last week of contest prep so i guess i better suck it up and get used to it huh?? i have had 2 appeitie chews today and they dnt seem to be helping but making me crave them more..cos they are CHOCOLATE..............grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

moving foward

I have decided to be on more with my blogging. I am loving working with mike davies. i love the supplement company he put me on. I am loving how professional he is and how quickly he gets back to me when i have a question. I am loving noticing the changes in my body. I am stoked and terrified to be competiting this september and october in my first npc figure shows. I am excited to be moving in the right direction twards my fitness career. i have goals outlined for this yera and high hopes that i will reach!! I have a lot of personal goals to reach this year and then it will be better for my family. I am starting my fitness career at the age of 28-29 years old which amazingly is not to old in theis industry to begin!


goals for 2011:


cpr /ace certifiaction

2npc shows stewart in myrtle beach and jen hendershott in charleston

professional photos takes for website. launch website offering one on one training as well as finding a studio to train at

fix credit and fix debt so that i can buy a house next year in charleston

feb 7 2011 progress pics:)

and the beat moves on...

today is sunday feb 20th 2011. i am sick:( ate an extra serving of fat yesterday and other than that diet has been going well for me:) i am noticing changes and thr hardest art for me is sceduling in ALL of my cardio:(. i missed a morning session this week and due to my hubby scedule, the gym sced and childcare hours i cant go till next week...ugh. i swear. this dieting/training and being a mom wife and all is exhausting and expensive:) but if i wanna achieve my goals ill do it!! off i go sunday is a new day:)

diet derail

ok i screwed up again!! damn dieting is hard!! i just aste 2tbsp ab with 2 scoops protein! ive gotta get this ab outta the house! tomorrow is a new day im gonna do early morning cardio on empty stomach and throw in an extra cardio day in this week to make up for derail:)

diet...

so due to the snowstorm i screwed up workouts and diet this week and decided sunday will be the beginning of my 3 weeks on this nutrition plan~ i really screwed up yesterdat and tonite im going out so i had off meal food including cashew butter alotsa oats and a banna nut muffin~screw it. have fun tonite ans atrting tomoroow its back to buisness on workouts and diet till contest is here:)

new diet 2011 figure prep

so monday i started my prep with new nutrionist/trainer mike davies. he is for now only doing my nutrition and cardio. sunday we got a blizzard here and have been stuck in for 3 days now:( it feels like forever. i am here with the fam kiddos and hubby...getting much of nothing done. i have not gotten a workout in all weel. hope fully thursday ill be able to get back to my normal gym time but this means that thur fri and sat im gonna have to do morning and nighttime cardio to make up for missing it...ugh, i need a treadmill here but i guess thats gonna have to wait b/c i also need car and supplements. i think im gonna start selling the productsa he's gonna have me taking i really like having a diet plan and knowing what im suppose to eat. i like the structure. i like the hard work of training and im so excited to compete. i also am very excited to continue with my personal training career...ive gotta get my cpr cert and attempt my exam and i f i fail ill take it again. i WILL achieve my goals this yeaR i will. period because im worth it and so is my family:-)