aug 15 2010

oh my where to begin..i kicked jo out monday and was very cool with it but right now actually for a couple days ive been missing him very badly, the bad outweighs the good in our relationship so im pretty sure im making the right choice but it does not make it any easier. i've never know love until i met him. we had two kids together and he is my husband but i guess even with all that its not enough. he drinks all the time and sleeps all day and out lifestyles are so completly different. im not expecting him to change who he is but i dont have to live with him or be around him because we are 28 and its tiime for us to to grow up...sad but true. his mother is a large part of our problem, she has handed him everything so much that he does not know how to be adult. he thinks our parents should still be paying for everything. we are so completly diffrerent, i dont like to ask for money i would rather find my own way to get it, no matter what it takes. i guess we are just too different to be together. sucks. on the other hand, tomorrow is mads first day of his 2ed year of first grade and i feel so bad for him. its just now sinking in that all his friends are in a grade above him. that he is gonna be so much older than everyone else. sucks. he was in tears tonite bc i would not let him go eat breakfast at school so that he could see his friends.poor guy. well i have to mop the floor then off to bed to try and read someof my material i need to know for tomorrow then up early and on new sced!! xoxo