turning over a new leaf:)

so today things are still not great, but thet r getting better!! iknow that they will. my car will be fixed in the next 2 weeks i know it will. i will more than likely get the @ home teletech job and recieve income. i will work my tail off > I will overcome this mess that im in, this single lady cant take care of myself. I cant believe that i let someone put me in this situation. ugh- im like a helpless little girl and it makes me sick. i never wanna feel this way again. the feeling of not being able to take care of myself makes me sick!! jon has made not be able to work and leaves me without any food or money!! sure he pays the bills but we are starving!! what the hell?? he thinks that he is doing a good deed but seriously its his responsability to take car of his wife. he married me and i have not been able to work because ive had to drive him around and the ungreatful sob left me high and dry. He wounders y i dont wanna be with him and thats y. now i am gonna file for medicaid, cs and foodstamps. what a freaking jerk. he really thinks the world owes him. all i wanted was for him to give a fuck about me, to be a husband and love me. to put someone before himself and to appreciate me for what i do. i bet i could get alamoney too. im gonna burn his ass. he has fucked with the wrong one this time i am not gonna roll over and play dead. im done.