Saturday, August 28, 2010

ok...im comfort food eating wtf???

ok so for like 3-4 days now ive been eating crap for comfort!!! ugggh. ive gotta get some $$$ to go get good healthy food. i need some pb, eggs protein powder o and gum...those are what saves me during those times of need. im going through a really hard time right now ands seem to be turning to food. I realize what im doing at the time and i just dont give a damn!!!! i dont even have any eggs. im sooo fucking frustrated. it is not like the food makes me even feel better eiether! this sux. ive gotta find a way to rise above it. im gonna be starving the next few days because i am taking myself off carbs!! no coffee(im out). i guess tomorrow for breakfast im gonna have tuna...thats it just tuna, no oatmeal and no carbs all day. tuna salad..(tuna and lettuce), i guess im gonna have to fill my belly up with water because ive gotta balance out what it is that i have done to my body the ast few days....i feel like such a fucking moron. how do others handle stress?? i mean if i did have th babys and live in a neighborhood full or mexicans wierdos ams rednecks i would just run, but um yeah not happening. i am soooo fucking angry at myself now! UGH. IN ALL REALITY I CANT EVEN PUT PB BACK IN FOR A FEW DAYS not that i even have any:(. my mom brought me food last night and i have went through almost all of it like im starving to death. i am so fucking sick n tired of this crap!!!!! omg!!!!

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