moving along...

well i started my new diet monday and its going great, im feeling great and all my workouts have gotten done on time as of this week. I am starting to see some definate muscle definition! I really like working with mike and hope i can afford to continue working with him. its only 130.00 per month for diet and workouts but the puregenesis products are pricey but if i absolutley have to, i guess ill have to let those go but i hope i dont have to because i think those products have a lot to do with the reason i have been feeling so good and its awesome to get off of all the creatine/bcaa and excess supplements i was taking that are hard on my body and stomach. so i guess im rally gonna do this compete thing and im excited and nervous. I am not expecting too much out of my first show but to enjoy and experience the journey. my marriage is falling apart and we have grown apart. we say very ugly stuff to one another and it breaks my heart:( I dont know what to do i cant stand him one minute and the next i love him. i hate that we never spend time together. i hate that he drinks all the time. i hate that he is so unhealthy and eats crap and wants to feed my kids crap. i hate that he is unsupportive in my fitness lifestyle and does not understand why i wanna put myself through this. I wissh things were different but if he does not change or we cant find a happy medium then we are gonna have to go our seperate ways.