diet sabbotage. day #2

at least my binges are not as bad as they were. the bagels and cream cheese are getting thrown away because all of that stuff is too much temptation. I have gotta work harder at my diet. its simply mind over matter...no shit. I am STILL out of protein and still out of ziplocs...ugh sux ass:( maybe i can talk jon into getting some tonight or something~ i sure hope so I have gotta focus on getting. I wanna be the fittest at my gym. the fittest at the show and not just the leanest but the best package!! no more fuck ups starts monday which is tomorrow and i am doing extra cardio to make up for all the crap i have done over the past week. its me vs me and i am gonna WIN this battle against myself. I am destroying myself:( ughhhhhhhh