post binge sickness...

last night i binged today i feel like ablsolute crap because of it. I have been going #2 all morning. i feel naucious:( ugh. my body hates me and the worst part is that im skipping cardio due to my house being a wreck and fabs coming over and the time i was gonna meet tara was impossible to go to gym and just hang and get maddux so i will be getting up supa early while the boys are sleeping and babys hopefully and going for a run outside...gabe is screaming and being a winey and he is getting on my nerves something serious. next week im gonna step it up a notch due to this week and 2 days im gonna do cardio for an hour. I have gotta be pn point on my diet and stop fucking around. I also need to invest in a treadmill asap to help with cardio so when kiddos are acting ba or i wake up late i can still get in some empty stomach cardio. I guess i'll have to save up around 100$ or more. I have gotta get my ass on the ball. my show is 24 weeks away ive got sooo much to do aside from even getting lean...so here is my list: 1.purchase npc card'-100.00 2.register for hendershott show-75.00 3.order suit-400.00 4. posing classes-50.00 5.boot camp 6.get big and get lean 7.net work with other competitors Its time. I'm getting super nervous and excited at the same time:) yay. this is my dream and it's worth the fear... 2.